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Not Everything Is Constructive

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I’ve been feeling pretty convicted about my last post. I shouldn’t have said some of the things I said about my mom. It’s not that these things weren’t true, but I feel like I should have left out the parts that were pointing out her flaws instead of working through my own experience. It’s a fine line, and I wish I could un-write some of those things. But I can’t (I mean, technically, I could delete them–but it wouldn’t really undo what I’ve already said). So I ask for your forgiveness and understanding. 

Upon re-reading it, some of the parts of that post were clearly written out of my hurt and anger. And I know I should have addressed that with her instead of sharing it with the world. Truthfully, I had addressed those things with her. That conversation we had continued for four hours because she wanted to make sure we resolved things before we parted. And we had. So it was wrong of me to rehash the especially bad parts here.

I know it’s my blog and my place to vent and that I am free to say what I want, but I have been reminded of I Corinthians 10:23: “‘Everything is permissible’–but not everything is beneficial. ‘Everything is permissible’–but not everything is constructive.” So I ask forgiveness for dishonoring my mom in my last post–it wasn’t necessary, and it wasn’t right.

At the end of the day, I know my mom loves me. We are very different people, but she means well. Maybe she’s not the most empathetic person in the world, but she does hurt for me. And I know she was very upset to know that she had hurt me. She just had trouble figuring out how to stop doing it. I do love my mom. And I am very glad she came to visit. And I am glad I have a blog where I can work through some of the most difficult things in this infertility journey in a way that is constructive. The thing is, parts of what I said in my last post simply weren’t constructive.

Thanks for understanding.

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7 thoughts on “Not Everything Is Constructive

  1. Aww your heart is so tender. Well, not sure my forgiveness is needed, but I forgive you. 🙂 I very much read it as you processing all your emotions, knowing that you knew all of it was right. God gave us emotions. Unfortunately they’re tainted with sin, but he is so gracious to let us feel what we need to and then convict wherever necessary. I’m thankful that you remain close to hear those convictions.

  2. Don’t beat yourself up too much. If nothing else, it sounds like that post helped you process some emotions. We’ve all been there! Praying that your appointment tomorrow goes well!! xoxo

  3. Aw, don’t feel bad. We all sometimes get frustrated with our mothers, especially when they don’t always say the most helpful things about our experience- even if they mean well! It doesn’t mean we don’t love them and know that they love us back. 🙂

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