This year, DH and I made a goal together to memorize one Bible verse together each week. We’ve started with 24 verses from the book of John (as provided by Ann Voskamp on her blog A Holy Experience).
We’ve memorized John 1:1,
In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God.
And John 1:5,
The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it.
And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us. And we have seen His glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father full of grace and truth.
Because he was full of grace and truth, from Him we all received one gift after another.
Do whatever He tells you.
For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life.
And this week, John 3:27,
A person cannot receive even one thing unless it is given him from heaven.
It’s been fun memorizing scripture together. We’ve been quizzing each other, which makes it easier to keep the verses memorized. And I know if we weren’t doing it together I would have given up, probably right around John 1:16 (that one was so tricky for some reason).
But this week’s verse has really opened my eyes to something that maybe should be obvious but which I had been missing.
A person CANNOT receive EVEN ONE THING unless it is given him from heaven.
This means the baby I’m hoping for will be from heaven–from God–whether it’s conceived miraculously without any help, or with the most help possible. If God wants to give us a baby, he will do it when he will and in whatever way he desires. And if, for some reason, this is not his will (or not his timing), he will prevent it.
I don’t have to worry if going forward with infertility treatments is God’s will or not. God has not given me any reason to question going forward with treatments, but if he desires our infertility to continue or to be resolved in a different way, he will make that happen, because we cannot receive a baby through ART (or any other means) unless it is given from heaven.
I find peace in this. It came at a time when I was really questioning: What is God calling me to do today? What is his will or desire for me right now? What’s plans can I make for tomorrow?
And the beautiful answer? I don’t need to know.
I choose to love God, to put him first, and trust that he will take care of the rest. He is for me–he has shown me this time and time and time again.
And besides, a person cannot receive even one thing unless it is given him from heaven.